But we have a hell of a time showing it. The thought of divorce has entered my mind more than once. After less than a year of marriage- that's not a good sign. I've been reading about ways to save my marriage and many things make sense. But they seemed to be missing something (I wasn't quite sure what) and they all seemed to want you to "do it all- today".
That is, until I happened to notice some people I'm following on twitter talking about having blogged about "Day __ of the Love Dare". I was curious (as is human nature) so I checked it out.
I was floored. Not only did The Love Dare have you do just one new thing each day, similar to FlyLadys baby steps, it also had that missing piece. The piece that's been missing from my life for way too long. Faith in God.
Faith in ANY God has been nearly non-existent in my life for a few years now. Don't give me grief or preach at me. My struggle with my faith is my own. You can't make me believe. Only I can do that.
Faith is knowing that air is all around you even when there isn't the slightest hint of a breeze. You can't see it. You can't hear it. You can't taste it. You can't smell it. You can't feel it. But you have faith that air is around you. I have a hard time with faith. But I'm learning that faith is a lot like love. It is intangible. When you have it- you just know it to be true.
So, after reading about this love dare thing I've decided I shall give it a go. I even recommended it to my bff. I think I may need to give her one of my bibles so she can do it all, but it is worth it.
Actually, I've been trying to get through Day 1 for a few days now. It's hard. Damn hard!! I can't believe how negative I am towards my husband. But tomorrow is a new day. er... well... Today I guess, as it is 12:36 am. And I will work hard to make it through the day with zero negative comments. And what if I'm close but still made a couple of negative comments? Progress, dears. Not perfection.
Also, I'm hoping to rent the movie Fireproof on Friday. My bff and I are going to try to double date to watch it. Either that or dh and I will watch it Friday and I'll send it her way for Saturday. I hope that this 40 day love dare will help us through the flood and help us start anew.
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